Soooo...I'm going to post some new stuff soon, I just need to finish the many things I've started. Photoshop is getting easier, what with tutorial after tutorial I think I may be getting the hang of things. Somewhat. I still get mighty frustrated sometimes I'm sure it just takes lots of patience & practice.

My older sister Layla is coming to visit from Indianapolis in 2 days I can't believe I haven't seen my parents, or my CATS , or the rest of my family in almost 4 months. Lisa came & visited about 2 months ago, which I'm still in disbelief over. It's strange being on my own, I keep thinking about how hard it was to leave home, & now it's going to be hard to go back. My parents are still in divorce limbo land, living in the same household & never speaking. It's nuts I really don't know how they're still living in this situation. So miserable.

This week has totally sucked. Matt & I are getting hardly any time to see eachother, since his platoon sergeant is a raging bitch & is making his life hell. I drive to the base, sit around for nearly 2 hours waiting, & then get to see him for 5 minutes. Seriously. I'm going to stop myself before I go on a major rant about it.

Anywho, *Gatobob recently posted a journal that made me think. Sometimes when I'm alone for too long with too much time on my hands, I start thinking about horrible, scary things. Just how much shit there really is in the world. Sick, fucked up, & just evil shit. I scare myself, & then I go & watch graphic HBO documentaries about the Sichuan Province in China getting an earthquake that killed 60,000+ people, mostly children, due to poor construction of schools. I watch the Alzheimer's specials & see so much pain. I go to the Wildlife Rescue & Rehab & see animals that have been neglected, abandoned, tortured. I think about the middle east & how my husband is probably going to have to go there for a year. It terrifies me. I stare at the horrible stuff too long & think about it too much. I guess when you take life really seriously, it's hard to see the beauty, it's hard not to be afraid. But if you live in fear, you're not living at all.

OOF! Well, I think I've rambled on long enough. The Sims 3 comes out in a little more than a week! WOOOOOO!!!! I'm freakin excited!

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